Tuesday, November 3, 2015

vacant city


i know that I am disappearing
but it is my secret
the doc had a long name for it
but i can't remember
all i know is that i am fading from within
and i cannot tell her this secret
i cannot let on to anyone
that i am no longer ordinary
my end like all men is certain
but my end will come as a day
i will simply no longer remember
you or myself
my heart breaks
not because i am losing myself
but because i will lose you
somewhere in the process

does being a stranger
in a strange town
make it easier or more difficult
i could easily lose myself here
i need to work
i need to keep sending the money back home
i need to keep moving forward
into this uncertainty
no one really knows me here
no one knows me like you
no one will miss me here
i know you will

what a strange predicament
yet i cannot come to grips with it
it seems easier to keep going through the motions
day to day
call you
tell you how much i love you
tell you until i can no longer
until i cannot
remember you
beyond your reach
lost beyond recognition
lost somewhere
within my own reflection

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